Sarah's withstood a great deal of pain in her lifetime, but this is proving to be almost as painful as having a knife driven into her. That, or it's almost as painful as a conversation with Cal when things don't really go anywhere. "I don't regret fooling around," she says cautiously. "But at the same time, Cook, I would appreciate if this was something that was between us. I need," she says, her muscles tense as she realizes exactly what she needs, "I need to feel like I have some kind of control. I wasn't in control, then. I forgot everything and I don't like that."