She takes in a deep breath, fraught with the frustration of dealing with Cal and the incessant fight that she keeps having to counter. "You don't have to," she allows, when she takes in that deep breath and calms herself. It's like she goes straight to being high-strung when he's around and she needs to somehow stop that. "Cal, you know I just want you to be. It just always helped take my mind off my own issues when there was someone else to focus on. John was good, that way."

And Charley, too, while she had him -- before...well, before everything got complicated.